... and people are going to keep believing stupid shit.
I like being a firebrand atheist. It bothers me deeply if someone were to misrepresent who I was when I die. I'm afraid my very religious family or friends will co-opt my death for their religion. I get it. It makes them feel better when grieving but it's dishonest to who I am. I used to be a Christian, sure but I haven't been for over a decade now and I'm very much an anti-theist. I do not believe in a God and think that if there was one that would be horrible. I wish to worship no one! or to be a slave to no master! Who the fuck wants that?! What is wrong with you people?! Especially a slave to something that's not even real! I chose autonomy and freedom. This is why I broke the spell years ago. I was indoctrinated as a child and kept in near isolation with other believers. Some even reading this may have been through the same mental child abuse. It is a form of child abuse.
There have been people die lately. Of course people die all the time but brutally and locally. Getting shot at this point is getting more and more common in this country. That's a price we pay for all these guns and we'll never give up our guns. But it's been somber as of late around me. People are sad and jolted back to the very stubborn fact that one day we're all going to die. And that day could be tomorrow and that death could be brutal and painful.
The very thing you that are religious are so afraid of - the pain, the death, the suffering, the earthquakes and floods, the Muslim terrorist... all the things that keep you terrified and keep you clutching your Bible is the very thing that make me feel at ease. Many that are religious are so concerned about what it would be like to embrace NOOOOOOOOTHHHHIIIIIIINGGGG! NOOOOOOO! There is Jesus or there is the void. That is all there is! And even if we atheists live a long happy life ... well, that point of "Jesus or nothing" isn't invalidated you see because where we can't be proven right or wrong .. the "afterlife" is where you will face the "nothingness!" How convenient.
But there is a freedom in nothing! That's what makes me laugh when I read something about the alternative to "the gospel" is nothingness because I get such comfort from this "nothingness". The control these people must have over their lives is astounding! They must not only be satisfied with all the science (well, some of the science! Not that icky human evolution science tho!) but they must know what's "beeeeeeeyyyyooooondddd the natural!" See, there must be a SUPER-Natural! They must know what's even beyond the cosmos. As if this cosmos isn't fucking enough to fascinate our ape brains!
I feel sorry for the theist. I feel sorry for the ones that must have answers to all the big questions- even if those answers are made up or found in an old magical book. There is freedom in letting go belief in magical gardens, noah's ark, blood sacrifices, resurrecting god-sons. There is freedom in just being a species of animal and stopping there and just letting that fact soak in. It is deep to be in the real world. It fills me with awe to not project any desires or feelings about what sounds nice or what would be nice or what my pastor says but to just be an animal. It feels freeing to look at my pet rats and realize we were once this small. We survived the dinosaurs by being this small. We have so much deep time and history. And we don't need to postulate sky daddies like our ancient ancestors because that's childish. We are growing up as a species and we're letting go of childish things (religion) as the polls are showing (in this country at least)
Hopefully someday you will join me in the sentiment of - I don't know what the fuck is going on with this cosmos and neither do you! You can believe in your gods, you gins, your fairies, your angels and demons you lambs washed in blood but do not pray over me. Do not co-opt my death for your religious nonsense. I have someone I've very close to that understands my strong anti-theism stance and promised me she would keep it on the real. I will not be remembered as a believer. That makes me feel good because I grew up over a decade ago. You should too!
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